Screw Up!

Hey?
It has been a long time since I loss my blogging habit (meeh, sorry). Now I'm trying to improve my blog's appearance by NOT USING the old one. 'cause I bet you can found thousand blogs with that kind of template. So I decide to customize it by myself, even though it looks very simple and cheezy, at least I tried. Right?

Anyway, I feel screw up! Why? Because I've just excluded from my dance group. By "excluded" I mean excluded from the perform this month, not from the group. The thing is, my stomach was so sick today and I decide to go home and skip my dance training. Then, someone took my place and I got "thrown" away. My best friend told me this bad news this night and I'm so SAD to hear it. I cried so loud in front of my parents. Well it seems like a very simple problem and everyone said "you can try it next year".  It is true. But, it's really hard to swallow the truth that "what you have wanted for years is in front of your eyes but you can't reach it because the door was already closed". Then all this negative thought about not gonna be a successful dancer, a bitter black&white days for the rest of my life, being jealous to my friend, and everything just popped up in my head! AND I DO KNOW WHAT TO DO!

Well, after I think and I think. I remember this verse that I think really suit on me. Not just about the contain, but also the number.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Jesus, thoughts of peace, and not evil, to give you hope and future" - Jeremiah 29 : 11

This verse feels like a magical verse to me. Why? Because I was born at November 29th. And November is the 11th month. You see. Not just the number but the contain as well. Jesus know what's good and what's bad for us. Something like this doesn't happen unexpectedly. Maybe it was unexpected FOR ME. But I know it's not an accident that Jesus suddenly press the "screw her for no reason" button. That I believed, he has another plan. I don't know what it is, but I feel it that he prepare me for something bigger. Look, being on dance, was already a big gift for me. If, he cancel the big gift, I can't even imagine how bigger is my real gift from God. This has been a very "hard slap" on my face. But I need to stay positive no matter what. In fact, I was thankful that they drop me out from the group because I haven't bought the shoes yet and I don't need to buy it online. 

See guys, we may have a LOTS of problem. But with Jesus, we can handle EVERYTHING. Believe me, wait no! I mean, believe JESUS. He's the true friend, the true savior, the only thing you need in your life. If you have God, and you BELIEVE WITH ALL YOUR HEARTS IN HIM, nothing is impossible. Stay joyful, always thankful, never hopeless. :)

xx,

Lauren